Daily Dependence

I went on a walk yesterday (trying to take one each evening - missed today though… bummer) and was having a pretty hard conversation with the Lord.

I was expressing my frustration in the contrast of last week’s LONG hours but MASSIVE breakthroughs with this week’s LONG hours and CONSTANT struggles.

It’s not a magic formula, I know that, but one thing I realized during the walk was the difference I approached each week with.

Last week I was desperate. Desperate and more dependent.

I clocked more hours praying last week than I probably did last month. (sad to admit, but it’s true)

I set last week before the Lord and basically cried out in desperation for Him to provide (business, and some family things too) in miraculous ways.

And He did.

This week, I jumped in still high from last week’s adrenaline rush and ready to continue the momentum… just to find it wasn’t there.

(And surely it wasn’t taking a day off to rest this weekend … it can’t have been that LOL)

Honestly, it was as if I was standing in the middle of a party, full of people, and then in an instant they vanished and immediate silence filled the space.

Developments are continuing - and they’re so crazy cool - but something was different.

I was thinking as I walked the little trail along the river yesterday how the Lord’s prayer, specifically “give us this day our daily bread” is a statement of daily dependence.

It’s a daily act of humility to depend on the Lord for that day’s provisions, regardless of the momentum from yesterday.

Now, I’m not here to say how God specifically does what He does, but I can say how amazing it is to me that I can go from a place of praying in desperation to nearly forgetting the One who gives and provides… all in less than a week.

That’s crazy.

And so, even with the craziness I’m surrounded by right now, that’s what I want to get back to.

Complete dependence.

Still figuring out what it looks like… can’t report on that or any magic recipe.

But just like I’ve tried before, I’m sharing transparently a couple things that I’m learning right now and opening it up to hear any feedback from you so I can learn and grow more this week :D

Check out the quote below - I need that posted everywhere!